Venmo allows others to see where you are spending your money, mainly in a social sense, such as using beer emoji to return money for drinks, or pictures of tickets and short explanations to settle up with friends for events.
I needed to learn these life lessons and she wanted a different type of guy in her life.Which is funny when you think about it, cause if it was that serious, wouldn’t they just screw me themselves? I wake with the knowledge that I’ll always be alone. It is insulting to me to be honest, that this is what we turned into. The notion that could happen is not what bothers me, or compels me to get out of bed to record these thoughts. I shrug my shoulders, as this is the new normal for me. I ask myself, “self what would you do, could you do to make it all a little better . I want what I want, and if I cannot have it, and cant think of a way to get it. There is no, “well I will just do this over here.” What does that say about me? Yeah, nothing beats watching Batman kick someone’s ass. yeah yeah, I know what you’re going to say, but dont bother. that only happens in movies and when a former lover gets hurt really bad by a new person, and you don’t want them then. My point is if you met her brand new, right now, how would you go about it? There’s stuff in your life you would have to hide, conceal right? I was not really getting what he was saying, and I know that because his next words, made me think about a different direction. “I would not let her in, or rather my house is not ready for guests right now.” “How often is it? Its not and it seldom is because depressed people don’t really care about the little stuff like that. The house, the made and quality of your clothes, eating too much or drinking too much, and it all has a cumulative effect. Truth be told, I knew what I wanted, I had it, and lost it somehow.I met her at a time in my life when I really wasn’t looking to date anyone.When we met, I didn’t have much feeling for her either way.