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It's her first big interview since my four-hour interrogation of Brooks last fall.So, I had to push it aside, I have to push it behind me. "I think what you will see in this season is that it definitely starts off very awkward, but the best part about this season is that we have a new cast member.She brings a whole lot of opinions and I love her, we have a great relationship…[The new season] starts off very somber and sad and I only know what I filmed, I don't know what the other ladies filmed, but from what I am hearing they were still willing to carry on this Brooks conversation and I was seven months out of there. I think God gives us things in our life that are really truly to learn a lesson and some of the things that I take away from my relationship with Brooks is really, for the first time in my relationships, I was all in…We weren't engaged but I really cared for this man… I learned so much about me: how I can forgive, how I can hold on anger, how I can really just move on—and it took a lot of soul searching.It was actually August 4th of last year when everything was starting to tumble around. I haven't seen him since the day that he pulled out of the drive way and I was just in shock like, 'What is going on? ' and he was like, 'You are never going to know, you don't deserve to know because you are going to share it with the cast.'"Here we are, almost a year later. Nobody can throw up and have fevers the way that he did. I saw the bills of all of these supplements he was taking. In a normal situation, if you were sick, or your boyfriend or a family member, would you ask them for medical records? That is where it started crossing the line and I think that is where he pulled back and said I am not sharing anything with you."I didn't think you were going to return this season."I didn't either. And I went in knowing that it was going to get a little bumpy, but I have been on this show for 10 years and this is my 11th season.My emotions are still sad more than anything that, number one, I have known this man for 10 years. Why would he spend that much money if he wasn't sick? I didn't think I had the strength but, you know, my story wasn't finished. I started at 42 years old, I just turned 54, so I started 12 years ago."That is a long time…"I am not going to let these women have the last say in what they believe the truth was.